Time for a change

I have gone back and forth with this whole blogging thing.  While I know that can be very theraputic, I have know idea why it is that I don't keep it up.  I think that it's because I don't always have something to say but I don't know.  I don't think that I am really writing expecting things to be different this time but at the same time I know that something in my life needs to change.  Where I stand right now in this very momemt is I am not happy, I just need to work on some things and as it stands, I don't know where to start.  Ever since I got to Atlanta, I have had a plan, I was working towards something and even if it was hard, my motivation was my goal and I have accomplished a lot.  I think what is bothering me right now is that I don't have a new plan, I feel stagnant and that is not a good thing so I am working on something new.  I have worked on my credit and it is finally starting to pan out,  I know I want a house by the time I am 31 but that is a long term goal so I need to feel like I am accomplishing something in the interem.   Of course, the whole getting a house thing is going to require some work between now and then but that is not enough.  So from here on out, I am working on me and that intales a whole lot,  my weight, my smoking or weed and cigarettes, my spending habitts, and my drinking habbits.  While, drinking has totally chilled out, I can do more.  I Just want to be able to look in the mirror and say, "I am still achieving goals. So as of today, and I don't know how I am going to pull it off but I am done with my drinking, I will do it in a social setting but not just because I am home.  This will help with my weight and I am sure of that.  It's going to be hard and I know it but nothing that is worth having is going to come easy and this I know.  I am about to be 30 and I refuse to be an unhappy 30 yr old, its time for a change.  The best that I can do at this point is to make it happen. No more excuses.  I am the king of planning and it just so happens that I am pretty good at that.  So in short, let's do this Eiran.