Cross Road

I may get the chance to be a father but I am not so sure I am ready.  This relationship I am in has been very rocky and I don't know its future.  I got back with my boyfriend, how I feel about him getting physical remains the same but a situation arose and I don't know how to deal.  Before we got together, he slept with an ex girlfriend who ended up pregnant.  We are not sure if the baby is his yet but two days ago we found out she died from a brain aneurism. She had been dead for 2 days before anyone found her. The baby was in her arms.  The baby is in ICU right now and we are trying to find the famly so Marcus' mom can do a DNA test (I didn't know a mother could do that).  If its his child, he wants the baby if its his.  He said,"if its my son, its your son too" to me.  I want kids some times and due to my status it will be too exspensive to have my own.  I may be getting ahead of myself but I can't stop thinking about it.  I am excited but I don't want to get my hopes up. I am also scared. We will just have to see how it plays out.