Time to get it together

I don't know what to say about myself anymore. I have broken so many rules that I set for myself. Don't get me wrong, I have had a lot of fun doing it but there are some things I am not proud of. 1 thing about me that has been consistant for the most part in my life is that I don't do penetration unless I am actually with someone.  Everything else is fair game but not that.  Here lately, everything is fair game.  Maybe I am being to hard on myself but that was something I was proud of.  I have all kinds of messed that rule up.  I have kinda been a ho.  I came down here with the intent of just being single and being OK with that.  I have done just that.  I currently can't put a # on how many people I am talking to and that's mainly because I haven't tried too lol but there are 2 guys that I am really feeling right now.  Alonzo and Deon.  I wasn't looking for anything and I find it funny that most people have a hard time finding someone that wants more than to just fuck and I can't find anyone that doesn't get emotionally attached and its kinda aggravating for me because I don't want that right now.  So, I am going to slow myself down, and keep to myself for a min.  Sex is gr8 but it's not something that I need so I am going to focus on me and my family for a bit.