No one said it was going to be easy

I went to sleep because I was a little upset about how this morning played out.  When I woke up, I came to the conclusion that everything that took place today is something that is what it is, and I need to come up with a game plan instead of sulking.  I can sulk all day but it doesn't change the hurdles that are in front of me currently and those hurdles still have to be dealt with, so I did just that.  I was able to tweak the action plan that I set in place slightly and I should still be able to obtain my goal with minimal delay.  Some how my choice to not smoke due to stress or drink my problems away gave me the drive to find a way to solve the problem.  It's not easy, but I have faith in myself and what I can accomplish.  This is what I wanted so this is what I am going to have.  When my goal is finally achieved, I will be able to proudly say that I did it, just like I was able to say, I made coming home possible.  I need to the lord to seriously keep me grounded because this is a long term goal so the focus and dedication has to be long term too and sticking with things hasn't really been my strong suit.  Correction, wasn't my strong suit, I am learning me and in learning me, I am molding me into the man I want to be.