Things falling into place

Yet again, it has been a while since I last wrote. In all honesty, not much has happened since the last time I wrote. Marcus and I are still done and it will stay that way, I have gone on a few dates and met someone that I actually like here which sucks because I am leaving, and O yeah, I felt up Rachel’s Zumba instructor (blame it on the booze). I didn’t have anything else of merit to report till a couple days ago. Two days ago I got the go ahead to apply for another position which was something I hadn’t planned on doing till Oct. Oct is right around the corner but still. I started applying and I found a position that I think I have a pretty good chance of getting. While I was planning on starting to apply in October, this job starts October the 1st and it really hit me that I am leaving. I have been really wishy washy about it all and I find that so weird because I have wanted this for so long. A lot has to do with all that I am leaving behind here. I have made some great friends here and created an extended family and now I am leaving it all. I know it is my life to live and not my family’s but I want my family to be physically apart of my life because I have missed so much and I feel like I put them on the back burner for something that didn’t even work out and now I feel stupid for it. It is a lesson learned, they are still there and he is not there in any way. I don’t ever want to put anyone over my family again. I got an email yesterday telling me that I got an interview. I am not sure of when, but I know they should be making their decisions next week. That’s about it for updates. I want to get together will all my friends but I haven’t figured out how just yet. Today I was driving in and for some reason my mind went to Devin and how it feels like just yesterday I walked off the plane to be with him and now his presence isn’t in my life at all and how even though I talked about never seeing him again and I did for a few brief moments a couple times but I feel deep down that I won’t see him ever again.