Rolling my eye's at life

I had a mini break down today. I just felt like giving up. I am so close to climbing out of this financial whole that I am in. Now Marcus is working so the financial burden is about to be lightened and that is great but I still have a couple of weeks to get through before that income is available. I know I will make it and everything will be fine but sometimes it gets so damn hard trying to be the strong one all the time. Trying to be the one to fix everything all the time. I know I will snap out of it. Well that is the game plan. I don't feel anyone should have to be strong all the time, it isn't possible. I am not going to pretend to be this fortified wall. I feel and right now, I feel frustrated. What frustrates me the most is Marcus finds a way to make my feelings about him and that shit ain't gone fly with me. I don't want my attitude to show with him, he has seen it but I don't like that part of me, but that is one sure fire way to make that side of me come out. That and someone trying to tell me how I feel. Let me have my moment and if anyone is going to tell me how I feel it's gonna be me.