Yesterday

It's time to say good-bye to the biggest mistake of my life. It's time for me to be happy. Sometimes you forget that it's the little things that truly matter. For me, it's always been the little things. Call me spoiled because I am. I have always gotten what I want. I have never done without and if I did it was because I had too much pride to ask for help. There is nothing that my family and friends wouldn't do for me. I don't ask for much, but I don't have to. People are there for me and for them, I am so grateful. Yesterday a few things happened. On the downside, I think I realized that the person I am currently with may not be where I need to be. I accepted that maybe I do need to be alone and focus on me. Of course that is what everyone has always said but it really takes you coming to the conclusion yourself about what you need to do. I am not completely certain about my next move and me being the person that I am I have to analyze everything. That can be a good thing sometimes but sometimes you just have to leap. On the up side. I made a friend yesterday. We aren't friends yet, but we will be. I scowerd the internal job site at my job trying to find a recruiter that could answer all my questions, what I found was a recruiter who wants to help me with my transition to Georgia. I also found out that as of September 9th which is right around the corner I'll be able to post out of my position. Yes, everything is falling into place. Also yesterday, I think I officially got my friend back. I don't think I ever lost him but our relationship was most deffinately changed. This was a friend who has been there for me in ways that he really never had to be. Our relationship was questionable for a while and it was because of a 3rd party and it turns out that we are OK or we are getting there. It made me more than happy. Yesterday, I also spent time with my girls. It wasn't a pleasant situation. I met with a personal trainer and spent the entire time feeling like I was going to die. I can't say we really spent time together because while they were laughing. I was struggling to breath. I think it will get better though but I am not taking my ass out there today, I am going to rest. Yesterday ended with good conversation with someone I hope will become a really good friend. Yesterday was a good day and now it is time to close the chapter on past yesterdays for good and focus on new memories. The past helped sculpt me into who I am today, but I don't want to think about or remember the sculpting process.