Christmas Eve

So it’s Christmas Eve and I am at work. I so wish that I had some sick time because I really don’t want to be here and I am actually trying to get out of it which is odd because leaving will affect my check and I don’t do short checks. I just want to be home, I probably should sit my ass here till 10 but I am not feeling it. Tonight is the big night. Aarris is coming over and I am excited about it. Mama is making sure the siblings have the house together for my guest and well, it’s on. I really hope he has a good time with us.


Yesterday was one of the best days that I have had in a long time, my family was together and we just had a good time. Unfortunately, my dad had to head home this morning so I he won’t be here for Christmas, I talked to him on my way to work and he just went on and on about how much of a good time that he had and that made me happy. I am so glad to have had this time with them. I never get both of my parents in the same place at the same time. I just felt overly blessed yesterday.

Today is kind of a bitter sweet day. While I am happy to be with my family for Christmas for the first time in over 4 years, I just wanted to do so much more than what I was able to do. Right now, I am broke every paycheck because there were some things that I needed to put first so I did. Shopping was fun while it lasted. I am so close to being over this hump that I have been working to get over but it seems like the closer I get I start to feel just how long I have been working towards it and it gets old. 2/1/2013 will be the first free paycheck that I will have. I have other stuff that I need to do but all the pressing things will be behind me and I am actually going to take that check and do something for me. I haven’t decided what just yet. I think I am going to get my ps3 fixed and a laptop. I know it will be a good feeling. I also think that I need to make a point to do something for me at least once a month. I haven’t really been able to do much, I have been giving my whole checks to bills and it has gotten really old but it has been necessary for the bigger picture. Getting there just really sucks. I need something to occupy my mind with since my free time isn’t spent fucked up. Well, I am going to go find something to occupy my time till lunch. Till next time.