I need to change the title of my Saturday blog

I think this about the most consistent that I have ever been with blogging. I would say I am proud of myself but it is honestly due to boredom, The fact is, while I am at home, there is always something going on in my house, be it my siblings having people over or just chilling with the fam. I don’t spend too much time on the computer. I have to admit that it is nice to be able to have my moment to reflect so bored or not, I am grateful for my Saturday work day that is full of not working.


I can’t say that too much has happened this week. The highlight for me took place last night, my dad came into town. It was a rare moment for us, I can count own my hands how many times I have set in one room and watched TV and tripped out with my Mom, Dad, and Big Sister. My parents haven’t been together in as long as I can remember. It was kind of funny to see everyone struggling to stay up past their bed time and then blame it on old age. I tried to get out of working tonight, I was even going to work a day in place of today so that I don’t have to have a short check but I couldn’t get it approved. So my family is all together minus me and today is dragging (no different from any other Saturday). Tomorrow is about me and dad so I am ok; I have something to look forward too.

I don't have much to report about Aarris and myself. We are doing well and are still in this perpetual limbo that I am the sole cause of. I still feel like it’s for the best. This is most definitely the longest I have dated someone without living with them. It’s nice to have a honeymoon period, either I have never had one, or it’s been so long that I don’t remember it. Either way you look at it, it’s not a memory I possess. At some point I realized that I am more nervous about Aarris meeting my family. The funny thing is that I am not nervous about how he will interact with them or them with him. I am nervous about him not relaxing and just being himself but when I told him how I felt, I could feel him looking through the phone at me like “U tripping, if you don’t chill the hell out”. I don’t know what has me tripping but deep down, I know I am the one that is doing the tripping. I hate how I went from numb bliss to whatever the hell you want to call this.

In other news, mom and I are planning a trip for my birthday. I had planned on going back to California from the moment that I left. I wanted to make a point to see Rachel, Christian and the rest of my Cali fam as much as possible. That is still the plan but communication hasn’t been so great. I talk to Rachel the most but that is rare, I know it’s the time difference and just like but I swore to myself that I wouldn’t drift apart from my friends their but it feels inevitable. I am missing hanging out with Rach and talking about randomness. I am starting to feel about my Cali family, the way that I felt about my blood family while I was in California. Feeling like I am missing out on so much. Christian’s birthday is a little over a month away, I missed being there for Yachi as her mom finally took her niece and moved to Nicaragua, Karla was dealing with some family stuff and I wasn’t there for her. Plus I am missing out on being an honorary Asian because I got invited to most family events. It stinks and I don’t know how to find balance. I know that I can talk after work but I am at work for 10 ½ hours a day, I drive 2 hours back and forth to work a day, and by the time I get home, I just want to sleep. Something has to give, these people played such a big role in my life for so long and I miss them.

When I started writing I really didn’t think I had much to report but apparently I was wrong, O well, purging is good for the soul and the waist line (these are the jokes people) I have I have 2 hours and 19 minutes to kill so I am going to go find something to do to occupy that time. Till next time.