Saturday Rundown

Things have finally slowed down as usual and what a week this has been. I was very productive if I do say so myself and I spent the entire week sick, every time that I thought that I was doing better, I’d turn around and get sick all over again. Not sure if I have blogged about it but turns out, I had an ear infection. My symptoms may or may not have had anything to do with the ear infection (at this point, I don’t really think all of them did). I had fevers for days, really bad headaches, and chills. To me, that sounds like the flu, which is why I credited my being sick to me being without my meds. I am not at 100% which does slightly concern me but I am close to it, I am feeling pretty ok right now on this wonderful Saturday. I got down and handled business. I finally got to see a Doc about being positive, and I am back to doing what I am supposed to be doing. I know it is stupid for me to put my health on the back burner but I didn’t know what else to do. I was in training mon-fri from 8-4:30 and there were no appointments available to me after work. I have no sick or vacation time so I couldn’t take time off because I needed my full check so I waited till training was done and I had a schedule that allowed it. I haven’t been without meds the entire time I have been back home, just the last 3 weeks or so but that is still long enough. My doc seems to be a pretty cool guy. He took me off the 3 meds I have been on for about 4 years and put me on a 1 a day regimen. I don’t know what it is but something about the change just made me happy, I think it’s because, every change that has taken place has been for the best and change just makes me feel like I am getting closer to my goal. Either way you look at it I am pretty happy right now. I ordered a replacement for my SS card, my birth certificate, and traded my California license in for a good old GA license. I feel like I am so close to shedding everything that was California and it feels so damn good.


I have to admit that I have been a little bummed about my Cali friends here lately. Maybe it was me being stubborn or maybe even prideful but after a few unsuccessful attempts and no call backs, I gave up on reaching out to people. I can’t be bummed about it and I am a strong believer in “out of sight out of mind” ,I don’t look at anything as being intentional but I just feel like what I didn’t want to happen has happened. Those daily conversations I was use to having no longer exist, I haven’t really made any new friends here and that is mainly because I am always at work and I am staying put the best I can so I can save or every friend I make has an ulterior motive. I am not mad at that though, I wanted to be ok being by myself and now I am. I have no co-dependencies and I so needed that. I am continuing on with my non-smoking lifestyle and somehow the desire to drink went away. Don’t get me wrong. I like my booze and I am not saying that I have quit but it’s no longer a constant in my life and I needed that and now saving has become something that is really important to me and that’s a new major change because usually, if I have been broke for a while, I find all kinds of stupid ways to justify spending money lol. New me, I will be in my own house by 31, now it the time I make the needed changes to make it happen. It feels so good to finally be happy.